dorkyguy

i saw you. it was kinda awkward but it was nice. i don't know if you think it was nice. but i think it was. you looked ok. i think. you looked preserved. i don't know. im not sure.

i wanted to hug. but i was sared cause you might not let me. i miss you. i still do. but you looked stuffed. and has no time for any view of me at all. i do think so. i looked quiet and preserved. i respected our silence. it was awkward. but i still liked it. i want to spend more time with you. but you hesitated. ok. i respected your decision again. cause i do respect you. but when will be the time that i'll get to be listened and heared again.. i listened. will you?

dorkyguy

ikaw ang lumayo. sumunod lang ako. sumonod ng sumunod hanggang tinakbuhan mo. ngayong hindi na kita. hanapan ba tayo ulit? hindi ka ba napapagod? hindi ka ba na hihirapan? kala ko nga kayo na nung nababalitaan kong kaibigan mo e. naririnig ko kasi na mas gusto nila siya kesa sakin para sayo. pero sila nga ba ang may gusto o ikaw mismo? wala pang nag babago. kung alam mo lang. gaano ako humabol. hindi ka na kasi lumingon e. hindi mo nakita ang buong storya. nga pala. malapit na debut mo. mag pakasaya ka nalang. baka kasi ayaw mo na ako mkita.

hindi pa ako nakakangiti ng tulad na pag ngiti ko sayo dati. wala pang nakakahuli nun.

dorkyguy

masakit mkarinig ng mga bagay na ndi mganda tungkol sayo.

sana malaman mo na khit ganto ko. masakit parin na mrinig galing sa mga kaibigan mo. bakit ndi mo kaia tumayo sa sarili mong mga paa? pwede bang wag ka ng magtago? harapin mo lahat. sabihin mo lahat ng totoo mong nararamdaman. sabihin mo sakin para ma satisfy ako na totoo lhat ng cnasabi nila. sabihin mo para maging sure din ako sa mga nararamdaman ko.

sana malaman mo na masakit.

magulo.

dorkyguy

paikot ikot na akong nag hihintay kahit mahilo ok lng. bumaliktad na ang lahat wag lang ikaw. maraming hihiyaw makamtam lng ang tumbas ng pag kagalak sa bigat ng buhat ng rollercoaster. sasakyan ko lahat maabot lamang ang hanggan ng buhok mo. (oo xe inggit ako hehe.. joke!) kahit ilang ulit ng loop dadaanan ko para lng maabot ang nsa loob mo.

yes like others. i didn't care. i too forgot to fasten my seat belt. i too tried to care and grasp with my hands for safety. but i guess i was also too hype and busy with the feeling and  instead just put it up in the air. like too i didn't care. unselflessly didn't care. too over distracted with unselfessly feelings and didn't notice that it beginnig to be so wrong.  like what irel said. humans are not meant to perfect in every way. and sometimes we do learn from the imperfections.

"the circle" by irel's blog

is more of a spiral actually.. it takes you round and round.. slowly, quickly, slowly again.. it takes you on a rollercoaster ride and before you know it, youre already deep.. under..

it's a struggle to go up.. the more you try to get up... the harder you fall..

inside this circle, there isnt anyone to blame.. because those who are in it enjoyed the ride...they experienced temporary bliss.. something that isn't gonna last for a long time.

hurt is something you should be ready for,, for in here, things are like sky writing - they are beautiful for sometime.. and when its gone it will just become a fragment of your memory, maybe forgotten, maybe not..

inside this magical circle are people who understand you.. unless youre in it.. this entry is useless,

unless youre mind is open.. you'll remain outside the circle..